Caring Too Much?
It's no secret, and I'm not afraid to admit that I am in fact a people pleaser. Sure, I'd love to say "I don't care what people think!" ( & to an extent, and in some certain aspects, I don't) , but I really cant. I often find myself considering others' opinions and feelings when making decisions even though those decisions do not directly affect them. Why? Why do I care so much, too much? I should just worry about myself right? So many times I lecture myself and dwell on the fact that I take into account others' emotions above my own in many circumstances. I feel like I go out of my way to make other people happy or to help someone out, knowing that if the tables were turned, they would not do the same. So many times, I wish that I could somehow change this characteristic of myself, maybe even do away with it, and start over, (how cowardly that would be) because Lord knows that I would have done so many things differently... had I not cared so much. I'm not scared to admit that I am a softie. My feelings get hurt. I genuinely care about issues that other people are facing. I've been taken advantage of before, due to this trait.
I allow myself to be vulnerable to people whose intentions are not as pure as my own!
Today I choose to not beat myself up any longer about this. Truth is, this is a beautiful trait. So many people have been hardened by the world and they are afraid to show emotion. They are worried about getting hurt, so they put up a wall as if letting someone in will damage them. In some cases this might be true, but let me tell you, if you are anything like me, just know that not everyone's objective is to take advantage of and/or use you! There are other people with pure intentions, who truly care about your happiness and well being.
Today I choose to not beat myself up any longer about this. Truth is, this is a beautiful trait. So many people have been hardened by the world and they are afraid to show emotion. They are worried about getting hurt, so they put up a wall as if letting someone in will damage them. In some cases this might be true, but let me tell you, if you are anything like me, just know that not everyone's objective is to take advantage of and/or use you! There are other people with pure intentions, who truly care about your happiness and well being.
How have we allowed ourselves to lose faith in humanity like this? Sure, there is evil in the world, and it's very prevalent, but we can't just shut out all of society and turn our backs on those who need us. We shouldn't stop being the neighbor who helps out another, or let our hearts have lack of compassion because we have been scammed by the door-to-door magazine salesman with the sob story (still annoyed about this one). There are people out there that really do need help and we shouldn't allow ourselves to become bitter due to one bad experience. There are friends out there that will be ALL IN and let you cry to them about issues that you are having and they will be there when you need them, if you need a favor or if you just need to talk. There are healthy relationships, with people who will not just use you for their benefit and discard you when you are no longer of use! This "Caring too much" thing is actually a quite beautiful trait. I want to remain compassionate, full of emotion, and soft... I don't want to be hardened.
Truth be known, I think I will choose to keep this vulnerable heart of mine. I think that if someone is willing to be unguarded and at risk of heartbreak, in this crazy world that we live in, it's actually very admirable and it takes a strong person. It's not a sign of weakness at all. Keep your hearts pure and pretty.
Just food for thought while I sip my morning coffee.
Just food for thought while I sip my morning coffee.
Much love,
Amelia B.